Hi there everyone! I am so happy to be back to writing here and so happy to be back to feeling like my normal self. I haven’t been active much since January, which wasn’t easy for me, but I had so much going on in my personal life that it was almost too much to handle. In December I went to a doctor to look at a few swollen lymph nodes in my neck that I had ignored for almost 2 years. This simple check up ended up being a four month long endeavor that would change my view on so many things. I ended up having multiple ultrasounds, CT scans, PET scans and 2 surgeries in a matter of months. The words cancer and lymphoma were constantly in my mind and always being looked for in my body. Finally we got answers these past two weeks, my tonsils in my PET scan came back so abnormally bright that it was 100% necessary to immediately take them out. After all these tests, we have found that I had a very very bad infection that could have been going on in my body for much longer then 2 years. This was a huge relief, I felt like the world had been lifted off of my shoulders and I could finally breathe.
Now my tonsils have been out for almost a week, and my lymph node in my neck that was the largest, and had never changed in size, is almost half what it was before surgery. I not only feel joy in the fact that I am cancer free, but I also for the first time in what feels like years feel awake. I didn’t realize how tired and groggy whatever was going on in my body was making me. I had spent the beginning of 2016 in this dark place of fear and anxiety, and now I feel as though I can breathe and finally begin to enjoy all that life is offering me right now. My family and friends have been the most amazing people during this, but my boyfriend has just gone above and beyond anything I ever expected from another human being. He was there when I would break down and cry and he was always checking on me and still to this day brings me little gifts and things to make sure I am happy and feeling my best. Without him and the love we share, and the undying love and support from my wonderful parents and sister, I can’t imagine that I would be where I am today. I only have 3 more weeks in my last semester of college, which has been nothing like I ever expected it. I have a lot of work to catch up on, but when I am not slaving away over the books I look forward to spending time with the people I love and bringing joy back into their lives and the lives of others.
Thank you so much for reading this far and sticking with me through these months. And I know my Mom, Dad, family, and my boyfriend will probably read this too. Thank you all so much for al you do for me I love you all so much❤